May 28

I keep on feeling these swings between "I haven't actually got that much, it'll be fine!" and "oh no, everything is due and there's no possible way it can all get done."  At this point, I have no idea what's accurate.  There's a lot due.  I'm not sure how much of it I can do in how much time.  I hardly even know how much time I have.  This is the downfall of living one day at a time.  I'm constantly surprised by things that are happening tomorrow, for example: as I write this, I was reminded that we have the second part of a bio exam tomorrow.  I have not prepared at all, the last class was spent on new material, and the style of learning for this unit runs exactly opposite to my strengths.  So that'll be a large proportion of my night, after I get home at 6:30.  That's often the toughest thing, especially now:  having to work around a job, as well as training that has completely fallen to the wayside as school arbitrarily decides that it is the only thing that matters in the world right now.  It's kind of crazy.  Tonight's plan of action:  Work until 6:30, get home, eat supper, study for bio, write a biology for band, of all things, write a letter to my coach explaining that I can't volunteer for them next weekend because I have to do so much work for other things.  Anyway, I'm off to do some of those things!